A year of living deliberately

Nothing like momentum to keep one going. As I start my day I'm wondering what will it bring? I just started home-schooling Eva, my five year old and am enjoying seeing her learn close up. As I think about what our h/s content will be it forces me to reflect on the overall use of my time through the day. A stay-at-home mom has a lot of freedom but it doesn't come without a cost. I rarely have a break from my kids.

In order to steal this time on the computer one is watching an "educational" cartoon while the other one is still in bed:) Soon it will be time for breakfast and then getting everybody dressed and out the door to the morning's activities. We come home just in time for lunch and then as today is our busy day, we go out again to gymnastics where I hope to take Declan for a walk to get him to nap after his session. Finally by 3pm we'll be heading home and this pregnant body will be done for the day. Nevertheless I will have 3 hours to find meaningful things for the kids to do while I figure out supper and wait for Jon to get home and provide me with a short respite until bedtime. I used to stay up after the kids went to bed but these days I often fall asleep with them and then stumble to my own bed for the night.

I'm not complaining, I have a wonderful life and I love being able to be with my kids. Our days are always full of interesting moments and yet when that 3pm knock-out hits me, I struggle to find patience, creativity and genuine interest in their conversation. This is where my journey of trust continues, if I ask God to provide me with strength to get me through my day will he do it? What does it look like? I know that I will get through my day no matter what, time will march on and eventually bedtime will arrive. What I want for today is to be intentional in how I spend the time - even if I'm tired. The strength I require is to decide what is most important and just do it. Today I will trust God to give me the strength and energy to be deliberate in how I spend my time. Today I will seek to live with INTENTION.

Uncertain Peace

I found out yesterday that my future is just a little more unsettled than I thought it was. My husband after 17 years of post-secondary education is beginning to apply for a real job, and it seemed that one of the earliest and somewhat ideal prospects was the brightest. However, that door has been closed and with baby #3 on the way I feel a pressing need to plan out the immediate future of our family.  This situation is certainly not unusual and in a time of recession and global difficulties might seem trite. The reason I chose this topic to begin my blog is that truthfully, I am a control freak who wants to see themselves as laid-back. Not knowing where my growing family is going to live in 6 short months kinda drives me nuts and yet I'm actually feeling mostly okay about it. Of course I'd love to get it sorted out as of yesterday and it would be nice to live near some family support and free babysitting, but if that's not what happens I think I'll be fine. 


Don't get me wrong, I'm intimidated by this new little person that's coming to shake up my family and officially outnumber the adults. I'm also worried that my husband with all his training and knowledge might not find a job; but my faith in God teaches me to trust and hope for all things to work together for my good whether I understand them or not. This is my journey and I begin this blog in the hope of documenting this process for myself and my children. It is my hope that the questions I ask and the conclusions I reach will resonate with many other seekers out there.

                                              20 weeks